Change. None of us like it. But, the Psalmist said, “…Because they have no changes, therefore they fear not God.” (Psalm 55:19b) The path on which God sometimes takes us involves change. This change is not always easy for us as it may not be something we like or may remove us completely from our comfort zone and will force us to depend totally on God.
Six weeks ago, God began working on my heart about a change that He wanted me to make. I did not understand it. This change was not in my plans and not only would force me completely out of my comfort zone and mean a time of loneliness, but also would force me to depend totally on God instead of the help… and approval of men. (This is a good thing although extremely hard.)
As I went through the process of seeking God and praying about this change, it was a time of revival in my own heart. (Good thing number two although not always pleasant during the process.) I am ashamed to say that I still did not want to make the change - even after getting other things right in my life. Then, I read the story of Joseph’s obedience to his father when he was instructed to take supplies to the very brothers who hated him. Genesis 37:13 Joseph’s response? “Here I am.” And, the story of Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane. “…O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.” (Matthew 26:39b) They both were asked to obey in situations much, much worse than mine. But, you don’t see skid marks as they dig in their heels resisting God’s will. As my Dad would say, “That sat down hard and took up a lot of pew.”
Yes, my obedience may be misunderstood. It may cause hurt feelings. It will not be easy for me or others. It will take me completely out of my comfort zone. However, I must obey. It will make me totally dependent upon God. I must yield to His will.
So, even as my heart is breaking (and maybe my will), I yield to His will. It is not easy and may not be for awhile. God brought Jeremiah 29:11 to my mind. “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” Jeremiah 29:11 Now, although I don’t know what the outcome will be, I have a sweet peace.
Several songs come to mind: “Trust and Obey,” “If Jesus Goes With Me I’ll Go Anywhere,” and “I Surrender All.” Also, this chorus I learned in college.
“I need You, Lord, in all I do.
I can’t get by unless I lean on You.
You light my way, You keep me out of the dark.
The Lord has a will and I have a need to follow that will,To humbly be still,
To rest in it, nest in it, fully be blest in it, Following my Father’s will.”
So, as a friend of mine said this past week, I now continue to walk this ever-surprising adventure that is life with the Lord. And what a precious adventure it is as He walks beside me and carries me through.